The Forum Magazine
Al-Anon's monthly magazine, The Forum, contains many personal stories of inspiration, some of which are made available each month on the Internet by authorization of Al-Anon Family Group Headquarters, Inc.
My husband’s alcoholism and my son’s rebellion were the proverbial last straw that brought me to Al‑Anon. There, I met several compassionate, strong, wise, and accepting people who shared their experiences and listened to mine without judging or using it against me.
I was raised in an emotionally, physically, and sexually abusive alcoholic family. As a result of major traumas in my life, I learned to operate in a perpetual state of fear and shame at the core of my being. I based all my decisions in my adult life on these two foundations. I had no self-esteem. I didn’t even think of myself as having a self. I had completely shut down feeling any emotion other than anger.