Why did we come to Al-Anon?

I’ve never been to an Al-Anon meeting but I think it might help me. I feel very alone. My son is addicted to drinking and smoking pot. They have a new baby 3 months old and he kicked his girlfriend out with the baby after drinking a bottle. She sat in her car for hours and said she might move out. She smelled like pot last week when I picked her up. My son is 30 and this has been going on to a certain degree for 10 yrs. He is excluding me from his life and saying mean, horrible insulting things to me and I feel cut off. Sometimes I say mean things back to him. I love my grandchildren and I worry about my grandson who is getting older and who just told me that daddy kicked him…I don’t know if Al-Anon helps for drugs too but I hope it might help me stop trying to react to his using and drinking and to live a better life for me.

My fiance and I have been together seven years. He’s an alcoholic and went into rehab a few days ago. The place he went to does family counseling and Al-Anon stuff, but I’m really not interested in this. I don’t want to go to counseling and I don’t want to sit through their “educational classes”. I’m a psychology student and know quite a bit about addiction.

So, how bad is it that I don’t want to do this? I don’t want to be the un-supportive partner, but I seriously just get angry thinking about having to do this stuff.

My daughter is a 30 year old addict. I love her very much, but her addiction controls our lives. It might be simple to cut her off, but the twist to all this is she has 3 beautiful children, my grandchildren; a 6 year old daugher and twin 19 month old boys, and she lives with me. There are also two different fathers involved, neither of which would be someone who I would want to raise my grandchildren. She lies, she steals money from me, her money “disappears”. I am depressed, and find myself hating to come home from work because of the situation. This is not the way I want to live the rest of my life, I need to find some peace and learn to deal with the situation that I keep hoping will improve, and just enjoy my grandkids.

I was married to an alcoholic for 27 years. The mental abuse felt physical. He was what they call a functioning alcoholic, a good provider–material wise. Now I’m married again for four years. Why didn’t I see this, or didn’t I want to see this?

My husband is a drug addict and alcoholic. He has been off drugs about 60 days and just entered a 60-day, in-house program through the Veterans Hospital. The problem is I have no faith he will quit drinking. Of course, he says he will. You know the whole spiel, but I have a good brain. I just don’t always use it.

I honestly feel I don’t want him back because I believe he will eventually start drinking again–slowly, of course, but I don’t want it in my life at all. I’m so tired and need to work on me. How do you choose between the realistic brain and the cord to the heart? I love him and I believe he loves me, but the addiction in his brain is a stronger pull than our love. I don’t know what to do.

I am feeling like this may help me. I have been with my husband for 14 years, and drinking has always been in the picture. I never really found it to be a problem until more recently, when his rages or behaviors have impacted me. However, looking back, it has always been a problem, just something I never really faced.

Recently I asked for a separation due to his drinking. Actually, I put it out there as “stop drinking or we are through.” I know I gave an ultimatum and hoped he would choose to get help, but he took his ring off the next day. Here we are almost 3 months later and I feel guilty for calling it quits. We have 2 children together, and his two children that I helped raise have already been through all this.

I know I am not crazy, but that is how I feel most of the time. If I was listening to someone else, I would tell them to get out and they are not wrong, but I can’t listen to my own advice at times. I am going to try to attend my first meeting in the next week. I want to see if it will help me, but from reading on here, I think it will.

Hello everyone,
I was reading all of your comments and it made me cry. My husband is a drinker. He drinks as often as possible, until there is no money for food left. And even then, he takes the chance to drink at other peoples houses, like his dad, which is an alcoholic.
I read about that I should be concentrating about my life and go on. The difficult thing about my situation is that I moved from a different country to marry this guy and now I am here and I can’t work. I am at home every single day. I don’t have a car and I don’t have any friends here. He leaves with his truck whenever he wants and once he starts having one beer he just can’t stop. When he is drunk he says all these bad things to me and the next day he apologizes for it. I love him so much and I would do everything for him but then I think about that I gave up my life, my job, my friends and family for this. He knows that I totally need him. And he takes advantage of it over and over again. When he is sober, he tells me that he knows that it’s got out of hand and he admits having a problem. But he would never go to an AA meeting, because he thinks it is not bad enough to go there. I really don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t have anyone here to talk to and I don’t want to worry my family in my homecountry.
Last night I was feeling so sad because I miss my home. I was sitting here and I was crying. And then he just left to go to his dads house. I tried to call him about three hours later because I fall down here and I needed help. He didn’t answer the phone but called me back an hour later. He told me that he was at a bar now but coming home right now. It took another hour for him to get home while I was laying here, not able to move or get up. When I ask him what took him so long, he said he stopped at a buddies house to have one more. I don’t know what to do. It’s just so frustrating and I’m mad and sad and I hate him when he drinks, but he is the most wonderful person when he is sober. That was just last nights story but things like that happen again and again. It is also so sad because we just got married in August 2008 and this should be the best time of my life. But the hurting and the disrespect kills me. I am crying almost everyday and when I want to talk to him about the situation he gets really mad and loud. I don’t know how to handle this situation. Thank you for giving me the chance to tell you about it.

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Nice article.

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My father is an alcoholic and has been so for over 20 years. I began to notice his drinking problem when I was around twelve years old. He has tried to quit over the years, but never lasted more than a year or two.

I’ve always felt sad about it, because he’s a good and caring person who happens to be an alcoholic. My mother has tried several times to get him to stop drinking. I made a few attempts in high school and around Christmas time two years ago. My father said the usual, but failed to act on it.

Last weekend, my wife and I walked out on a lunch party my parents were having due to my father’s drunkenness. We made a lame excuse so that we would not embarass my parents in front of their guests. Essentially, this was the straw that broke the proverbial camel’s back. Two of the guests were family friends that I’ve known since junior high and they had bared witness to my father’s alcoholic tendencies back then.

I couldn’t take it anymore. I told my mother (who is not an alcoholic) that I refused to sit in the same room as my father and watch him get drunk. I had done so for far too long. My mother accused me of over-reacting.

I still have to talk to my father and tell him the real reason I left the party. I believe, like some others here have mentioned, that it’s time for me to take control of MY life and not let his alcoholism control me. I know that I cannot solve his problem. He must decide that for himself. However, until he actually admits he has a problem, he cannot begin to solve it. The ball is in his court.

That leaves one other problem to solve: my relationship with my mother. She has given up trying to change my father, yet expects me to put up with his drunkeness simply because he is my father. Otherwise, she feels that I may never come by and visit her. Worse, she’s very worried that my actions may break up our family. I feel that to get control of my life back the risk is warranted. I do not want to spend another twenty years watching my father get drunk, especially now that he’s retired and lives close by.

Thank you, Al-Anon, for providing this forum for people in my situation. I’ve never been to a meeting, but I’m thinking about attending one. Once again, thank you and may you all have a great holiday season.

I’m a mental health professional and feel as though I should not feel the things I feel about myself, my family, my loved ones. My father was an emotionally abusive alcoholic. My ex-boyfriend was as well. I remember being evicted from place to place as a child because we never had money to pay the rent, because my father would never hold down a job. At 8 years old, i remember being worried about where my family was going to live. And still today, i feel the constant anxiety and depression that began during my childhood years. I swore I’d never be with an alcoholic. I swore I’d never put my child through that. And yet, I did. After my divorce, I began dating and fell hopelessly in love. With an alcoholic. The anxiety, depression, feelings of worthlessness started all over again. It was like walking on egg shells because I never knew what little thing I was going to do that would set him off. I know that kind of life is not for me, or my son. Yet, I hate being alone and feel as if I don’t have a clue how to start over again.

I have never attended an Al-Anon meeting but I am really hurting and would like to start. I live with a binge drinker that smokes pot everyday and if he doesn’t have what he needs he takes it out on me and now my kids. Our lives are in financial ruin and my kids are starting to have emotional problems and trouble with close friendships. I am not sure where to start?

I love Al-Anon. It has truly saved my life. I grew up in an alcoholic home and started going to therapy in college. Over the next 8 years, several therapists suggested I might benefit from Al-Anon, but I didn’t really think it was my problem. My Dad is the drinker in the family, why did I need help? Denial is so powerful. After a painful divorce and another therapist recommendation, I finally came to Al-Anon. I was scared out of my mind to attend my first meeting. What was I really admitting by walking through those doors? What would the members be talking about? I didn’t know what to expect.
I married again several years later, and found out that my husband is an alcoholic. I love him dearly, and thankfully, he chose sobriety and has been an AA member for over a year. But I depend on the Al-Anon program to learn how to live life on life’s terms. In meetings, we tell newcomers not to quit before the miracle.
My favorite slogan is “Live and Let Live”. With the help of my Al-Anon friends and sponsors, I’m learning that there is more to life than survival. This program works. I have 4 years of life to prove it! I wish you all the peace and joy that I have found.

Hey, reading all your stories sounds so much like my own! I was going out with my now ex partner for 10 years, we have an 8 and half year old son and I am also 4 months pregnant.
Anyway the more I think about it the more I realise there has always been a drinking problem there, although I either ignored it or to be honest joined in on it! For the past year my life had been a living hell, I never thought things could get so bad literally one day after the other. We have been through, lies, betrayal, infidelity etc. It has literally been so bad one after the other to the point I took an overdose, took him back after everything he has put me through and my son time and time ago, listened to the promises that we were wha he wanted, it was all going to change.. But a few days weeks into it we were back at square one. Either he was out drinking seeing other girls etc or doing something. And of course this was all MY fault I drove him to it, I made him drink etc..
Anyway now he has not seen his son in 4 months nearly, I am going through it alone the pregnant everything, my son asking why does daddy not see me. It took me a long time to realise I needed tp get my life back in order before I could be there for my kids. I went to my first Al-Anon meeting last night and listening to everyone really brought it all home! I could identify with wall of them. It was so great to hear from all people who ahve been in the same situation as me and who are in a much better place and happy today.
So now I have hope, I feel better already. I know to help him I need to help myself and let him go. I cant change him, cure him or control what he does. He makes his own decisions and I jst need to take care of me and in turn my kids.
So people I hope there is hope out there for everyone 🙂

I started going to Al-Anon meetings about 7 weeks ago and I came because I thought like most everyone else that I could find out how to stop my alcoholic from drinking but I found out at my very first meeting that I was the one that needs the help,that I am the the one that needs to get healthy and that I can not stop,fix,or control his problem but I can fix myself even though I did not have a problem but I did have a problem I was the enabler and I think that in my own little way I always knew that but I believe that in so many ways I was in denial but I as I keep going back every week I find that I am making some progress in getting myself healthy and as I do that maybe I can also show my three children how to make themselves healthy without always blaming the alcoholic in our lives for all of the problems that they may be having. I have tried to get them to go to Alateen but they are not ready to go and talk to strangers about the problem but in the mean time they can see some of the changes that are happening with myself that is for the better so maybe just maybe they will learn something from me that will maybe help them to detach with love and live their life to the fullest and not have many regrets and feel like they have failed in trying to get the alcoholic to stop the drinking. I never really understood alcoholism was a family disease until I started Al-Anon meetings. There are many days that I repeat the Serenity Prayer over and over to myself and I try to remember a slogan for the day. I have not yet figured out how or who I need to make amends to other than myself and my children or how to make a list of my own faults and that is one of the many things that I have to work. But I know that if continue in the program I will eventually get there and get where I need to be to feel better about myself so that I can live with a little piece of mind knowing that there is nothing that I can do to get the alcoholic to stop drinking.

My sister and i grew up in an alcoholic family. Our mom and dad are both alcoholics. This has been going on since before i was born and throughout me and my sisters childhood. We grew up going to the beer joint around the corner with our parents. Everyday they would go have a few beers after work while we were still at the babysitters. On the weekends, they would take us with them. Our parents were very supportive and loving. They provided us with everything we ever need and wanted. They supported us in everything we wanted to do. They sent my sister to college and are currently supporting me through college. We both had a great relationship with our parents.
When i was in high school i started noticing that the drinking was a problem. on a few occasions i caught my mom drinking in the morning while i was getting ready for school. My dad drank heavily at night but was able to get up and function at work during the day, but as soon as he got home he drank until he passed out. I confronted them a few times but the drinking never stopped. they never stopped going to the beer joint. i didnt think i could stop the drinking, but i never expected it to get worse.
Last year was a year from hell. The summer before my first semester in college, my dad lost his job that he had been with for over 15 yrs because a co worker smelled alcohol on his breath and they drug tested him and he had a small amount of alcohol in his system. Thats what happens when someone drinks everynight. they made him see a therapist but he told her he didnt want to stop drinking..therefore he lost his job. He soon found another better paying job that he is currently with. still same routine..he gets up goes to work then to the beer joint with mom then home for more drinking and passing out.
that summer my moms work place of over 35 yrs closed down and she lost her job. this made her so depressed that he started drinking more. she wouldnt get out of bed and she started drinking liquor instead of beer. after a year of stress hurt and pain within the family, my mom recently went to the doctor and found out that if she doesnt stop drinking her liver will fail and she will die. she was doing good for about 5 weeks but now she has started again. it is tearing me and my sister apart that my dad is still enabling my mom even after she knows she could be near death. I am so depressed and just want my mom to get better. She is my best friend. I know she wants to get better but thinks she can do it on her own. I felt like i had no choice but to give her an ultimatum-see a counselor and stop drinking or i wont be part of your life. Having that converstaion yesterday torn me apart. and in the back of my mind i know that she cant choose me over the addiction.
I plan on going to a meeting in my neighborhood tomorrow. But im scared. I feel that by helping myself i will be abandoning my mom because she cant get sober on her own. I dont want to be selfish and just leave her. i have to have her in my life. but i feel like i have little time to help her. if she keeps drinking she will die.

It’s been years since I first walked into an Al-Anon meeting. I went because I didn’t know what else to do but I honestly didn’t believe it would help–nothing else had.
I survived all the usual drunken rages, promises to change, promises not to drink, promises of love and I couldn’t take the broken promises anymore, including the biggest one of all: My life and family aren’t going to be like that. That was my broken promise to myself. Not only was it like what was there growing up, it was worse! Al-Anon helped me see past the fear that nothing could change the life I was living. Their promise to me was that if I was willing to change, all of that could and would be different. I came to see if I could get my life back even though I didn’t understand that at the time. Gradually by keeping the focus on me, I did just that.

Looking for answers and found this website. Little over a month ago, my only sister died due to the affects of her various addictions (cocaine, booze, oxy.) One month to the day of her death, my only brother nearly died because he had brought a homeless person to his house to have someone to drink with, the person set a fire in the room while my brother was passed out, and then that person died of the smoke and fire while my brother narrowly escaped.

I realized a couple of years ago that we were raised in addiction: mom was clearly and alcoholic and dad a passive codependant. I fooled myself that once we had reached adulthood “that” phase was over. I’ve tried so many years without success (no shock there!) to get my brother and sister some help. Neither was or is interested. They were both highly intelligent, but couldn’t see the freight train coming for them.

I am in my fourth year of therapy, have a strong supportive marriage and am reconnecting with parents due to sisters death, after several year’s estrangement. I’ll see where this takes me. I know that I can only save me, not anyone else. Still, it is sad and lonely to lose one’s family. I think they’ll shut me out again because I refuse to help my brother continue his addiction, while my parents keep sending him money and bailing him out of his messes. He probably doesn’t have much time left. His self destruction is speeding up. I see by the other messages that we are not alone in this, that helps some.

I was at an AA conference this past weekend with my boyfriend who has celebrated his 30th birthday with the program. One of the guest speakers from Al-Anon spoke and it hit home. My father has a drinking problem. My mother I now understand is also suffering from the results. I was married to an alcoholic. Both my father and my ex-husband were good providers, drank only on weekends, stopped and cleaned up on Sundays. I was never embarrassed by my father actually I worshiped him in so many ways. He was not around much but was a strict parent. My mother and I were very close until I hit around 13. I knew they loved me but I found it hard as I felt I never could do anything good enough. I knew they were proud but I felt they weren’t. My mom has become very negative and seems to get worse as they years go by. When my husband left she started with some of her negative talk and I had to ask her to back off. It was the hardest thing I ever did. When I went home to visit she was so supportive. Through circumstances since my separation from my husband it has put a real strain on my relationship with both parents. My husband or my x most of the time did not embarrass me and in many respects I worshiped him too. As his disease progressed I became lonelier and lonelier. He became more and more a hermit. He did not like to socialize or leave home. He was super critical of everything I did. I became more and more depressed. I never complained and just kept waiting for things to improve. I decided to push for a pet I didn’t realize at the time that I needed something to hug and showed they wanted me. We went on a cruise I had hoped it would bring us closer. No such luck. When we came home he admitted he was an alcoholic and stopped drinking and I patiently waited for things to change. Well they did but not the way I had hoped. He stopped for 5 years and announced he was leaving as he did not want to live the rest of his life this way. I was destroyed in shock and everything that goes with it. I had secretly wanted to be free of this life but not from him. My life came crashing in on me. Through help and a lot of work I thought I had put this all behind me until this past weekend conference. I realize I am like the dry alcoholic and I need to be healed from the effects of alcohol. I myself have an addictive personality. I tried to get to a meeting tonight but had a argument with my boyfriend He went to his meeting … and now I am on line. So tomorrow I will go to a meeting…Thank you for all that have shared their stories…you just never know who needs to here that they are not alone… thank you

I have been in love with an alcoholic for six years. He is not a nasty drunk like so many others are, but will let you down by being late or changing plans. He is so bad that he drinks his rent and bill money up. He has a good job and makes a good living, but has nothing because of the drinking. I broke it off with him several times and we’re not together and haven’t been for a while, but he has so many qualities that I love and is such a gentle man that I am still hopelessly in love with him. I thought if I left him, he would miss me and stop drinking and get his life together so that we could share ours together. As you can guess, that didn’t happen. He calls me every few months and tells me that he thinks of me and misses me. I ask him to stop calling me and let me go, because this has absolutely destroyed me. I have a deep sadness inside that won’t go away and no matter how much time passes, I can’t forget him. I think about him almost every moment of the day and worry about him as well. He asked me many times if he could just call me and talk to me. I try to tell him that it’s so hard for me. Of course, I only hear from him when he drinks. He never calls sober, unless he is trying to stop drinking, then he might call. I feel guilty because I thought if I gave him tough love that would help, but it didn’t. I don’t know much about alcohol abuse or even understand it that much. I know it is a struggle and disease, but I guess I think if he wanted to change his life he would and he hasn’t. He has a grown son that he loves, but he can’t even get sober for his son. I decided to go to a meeting and see what it is about because I can’t move past this and feel like my life is frozen. I think all of this affects me more than him. I read the other comments and it helps to make you realize so many people are affected by other’s addictions. It’s so hard to love someone so much and feel that no matter what support you give me, it doesn’t help. I am looking forward to my first meeting.

My boyfriend of 6 years is an alcoholic. I take care of his 8 year old son who is like my own. I make myself sick everyday from the stress of what will happen after work. Will he or won’t he drink???? Once he starts he doesn’t want to stop. I am left taking care of his son all the time. I have no life myself, because its all about him. I love him yet I hate him for what he is doing. I recently went away fro the weekend to do some thinking. He begged me to come home and not to leave him, that we would work things out,but the day I come home we go out to get dinner and he drinks. I know I can’t make him stop, but how can I live like this any longer? He knows how I feel. I am afraid of going to the meetings. Am I supposed to tell him I’m going or not? I know I’m not the only one going through this. I guess thats why I’m not crazy yet.

My husband is an alcoholic. Not that he drinks all the time but that everything is coloured by when he can have his next drink. Every friday night is the same he comes home with beer or starts the whole I love you so much I am happy so I wont get mad if you don’t start on me. I wont drink next weekend. Tomorrow will be all about you. So the barganing continues. He doesn’t realise that I hate the weekends. He may only drink on friday night but then the occasional wed night and then Sat night he says I am cooking a BBQ so get everthing ready and I will cook after I get a 6 pack. Then later on demands for more.

I have 3 small children (under 6) how do I protect them. The two eldest are starting to realise that daddy is strange when he drinks the smelly stuff. They are becomming afraid of him as they never know how he will react. Sometimes he plays with them and has fun and the next minute he is yelling at them and shoving them away. I want to protect them but what can I do. He has never been violent. He never hits me or the kids but I am still afraid of how he changes.

When he is not drinking he is great. Happy, tired, doesn’t matter he is a good dad and husband but when the weekend comes around or if he gets really stressed the drinking starts.

I resisted going to Al-Anon for at least five years. When I finally “caved in” and went to my first meeting, I got help. I came away from my first Al-Anon meeting feeling hopeful. At last, I was with a group of people who understood exactly what I was going through with my husband’s drinking and what his drinking was doing to me.

Through Al-Anon, I began to understand alcoholism as an illness that affects the drinker and everyone close to him or her. While it can be arrested by abstinence, it cannot be cured. And, that the best way for me to help the drinker was to get the focus on myself, my attitudes, and behavior. I felt like I was going crazy and I was enraged. The more I tried to change the alcoholic, the more he drank. I also learned that recovery for the family members is just as important as the drinker’s treatment and recovery. It is not an overnight or “quick fix” type of thing for family members.

I learned that I have choices instead of feeling backed into a corner with no way out.
I’m a long time member who still goes to two Al-Anon face to face meetings a week.
If Al-Anon isn’t listed in your local telephone book, most meeting information for the US and Canada is posted on the Al-Anon Web site, http://www.al-anon.alateen.org or by calling 888-4AL-ANON (888-425-2666). For electronic meeting information, e-mail wso@al-anon.org or call the number above.

I came because I have been dating someone for the past 6 months who is an alcoholic x 1 year. He is a very respectful person and I am falling in love with him. But, his alcoholism is getting worse. When he wakes up he shakes. He drinks daily. He knows he is an alcoholic and says he does not feel he can keep it up much longer, but doesn’t do anything to stop because he is afraid of withdrawal.

When my daughter first “came out” about her drug and alcohol abuse (along with her cutting), I decided that I had to get her into AA or some other program. Explaining my intent to the “double winner” who answered my call on AA’s help-line, that wonderful guy said that I would find what I need (NOTE: he didn’t say what I WANT) at an Alanon meeting. With a legal pad of paper and pen, I showed up at my first meeting ready to “grill” anyone and everyone about the resources available to “fix” her. As I listened (oops, OK – honesty: as I frequently interrupted!), I discovered that Alanon wasn’t about about fixing Jessica’s problems: it was more about how to fix ME. I hadn’t realized that I was the one who needed fixing.

So, I came to Alanon looking for something I wanted, but – instead – received what I needed: recovery! Two years later and still counting, I can honestly say that my life is much improved thanks to the gifts I have received from my efforts working the Alanon program.

I need to know that someone understands when I say my husband is an alcoholic and I have been dealing with this for years. I think I am just tired of it and him. We don’t really have a meaningful relationship anymore. We don’t go anywhere together anymore because he usually finds a way to get a drink and get drunk and it is so embarassing. I hardly go very far from home if I go at all because I’m afraid of what he’ll do when he’s alone. He drinks to the point of having blackouts and he has been hospitalized twice for pancreatitis which I know is caused by drinking.