How I’ve changed since my first meeting

I recently celebrated my eighth anniversary in the Al-Anon program, and I’m a very grateful member. I look back at my first meeting and smile, knowing that my Higher Power played a part in getting me there and having me hear just what I needed to hear.

The room was very full of people. I was so sad and afraid. My best friend was with me; we sat in the back row, close to the corner. My head was down and my shoulders were slumped. I was barely able to say my name as everyone went around the room for introductions.

The topic was “Let Go and Let God.” My friend and I were amazed. I remember feeling better that day, just being in the room. I kept coming back, wanting to feel even better. I read some Al-Anon literature and found all of my secrets exposed. These people knew everything I had done and loved me anyway.

They knew about my threats to leave the alcoholic, how I poured alcohol down the drain, and how I drank with him so there wouldn’t be as much. They knew about my searches in the garage for hidden bottles. I realized that not only was I not alone, but that these strangers understood me and loved me. I kept attending week after week and started feeling much better.

My life has totally changed from that winter eight years ago. I am no longer afraid. I have the strength to take care of myself and my children.

I have faith that things will work out just the way they are supposed to. I will be forever grateful for a room full of strangers at that first meeting and to the Al-Anon program for giving me back my life.

By Diana B., Oregon

2017-07-27T15:31:20+00:00July 29, 2016|Categories: Common Concerns|

One Comment

  1. Ginette April 2018 at 11:22 am

    I’ve been a very grateful member of al-anon for eight years. It’s really helped me a lot. I grew up with an alcoholic father who was emotionally and mentally abusive. It took me a long time to understand that he had mental problems. I also have an addict son. That was even more stressful for me. I couldn’t change my father because he passed away a long time ago. There was no closure with him. But, when it came to my son I didn’t know what to do. I tried to change him as best I could. Nothing worked. I learned in al-anon that I can’t change anyone but myself. Took me awhile to understand that. I do now. My son is extremely manipulative and I’m always on my guard when he calls. He’s very clever at what he does. I’m grateful that he finally stopped the big drugs. He still smokes pot. I learned not to say anything to him anymore. It’s a waste of my energy. Thank you to al-anon and my higher power! Without them I would probably not be here anymore!!!

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