INTERVIEWER: People often say that they have experienced fear in really alcoholic relationships. Have you had experience with that and what have you learned in Al‑Anon to help you deal with that?
ANNA: I was a fear based all my life, and I was fearful of what was going to happen, which were all projections, as we call them, in Al‑Anon, because they hadn’t really even happened. But I imagined that by thinking of the worse, I could prepare myself to face the disaster that was about to happen, or by remembering things that happened in the past and fearing that a repetition of the occurrence was about to happen again.
So, my Sponsor, one of the first things she did is have me write down my fears on a piece of paper. And when I looked at them in black and white, they lost a lot of the power that they had when they were floating around in my head. The second thing is I talked them over with her and we reasoned things out.
And the third thing is I replaced it little by little as my faith in a higher power who looks after me grew. I replaced fear with faith and lastly, I stay in today. Now is all I have when I’m thinking of about the future or, you know, worrying about what’s going to happen or what happened already. I’m not in today. I’m totally losing touch with my reality.
INTERVIEWER: Thank you, Anna. Very powerful.