I finally gathered enough courage to go into the meeting

My first Al‑Anon meeting was the one I didn’t attend. I sat in my car outside the building and watched the people going inside. They were smiling and hugging each other.

I was here because my best friend had told me that I would find help in Al‑Anon, and even serenity. But I couldn’t go inside. I went home to my empty apartment and to the pain, anger, and sadness within me.

The following evening, I went back to the meeting, and this time I gathered enough courage to go inside. When the group secretary asked if there were any newcomers, I raised my hand and said my name.

As the meeting went on, something happened to me. I still don’t know what it was. It had nothing to do with anything anyone was saying. It was a sudden sense of being at home, of being in the right place for me—for the first time in a very long time.

By Ed S., California
Al-Anon Faces Alcoholism 2017

2017-07-27T15:50:58+00:00February 21, 2017|Categories: Alcoholic Child, Alcoholic Friend, Alcoholic Parent, Alcoholic Sibling, Alcoholic Spouse or Partner|

One Comment

  1. Heather P. April 2018 at 10:06 am

    This post gave me goosebumps! I attended my first Al Anon meeting last night. I arrived nearly an hour early, parked in the furthest parking spot and waited. I watched as everyone went inside. I was shaking, my hands were sweating, and I couldn’t bring myself to get out of the car. I cant tell you how many times I grabbed the door handle and stopped. I even drove away and came back! I finally gathered the courage to go inside and it was the best decision I’ve made. I was greeted by so many smiling faces, hand shakes, hugs, greetings, and well wishes. I have bad social anxiety but yet all of those things didn’t bring it out in me. They were all genuinely happy to see me, proud of me for coming, and more than willing to help me in any way. I cannot describe the feeling I had in that meeting better than you had. Although I had never been there and knew no one; I had the feeling of “home”. I was meant to be there and I will be going back.

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